Welcome to my life.

2011-11-22T00:45:00.000-08:00

Am pretty happy today. (:

I think cause I finally got to sleep again xD

Life does suck, but I guess thats smth that we've to accept.

Actually today I'm thinking a lot about two ma'ams, and one junior.

How funny right.

Well, this junior is a rather unique person.

I think she's very strong-willed.

But then, she will have some trouble getting what she wants, cause of her demeanor.

If she stops her two-faced act, ....I guess she'll be a much nicer person.

I'm pretty glad for the ma'ams that O levels are over.

But it means that mine's coming. :(((

Ma'am yt right. I think she's a really nice person.

It's quite confusing for me, the way I know her.

Like hello. I can't say hello to her.

Stuff like that. She's interesting, but I can't get to know her.

Okay, I think I'm getting pretty much out of point.

Both ma'ams, I think they're very interesting in their own unique ways.

I think I'd love to be friends with them.

LALALALALA~

I think I'm drunk.

2011-11-21T02:01:00.000-08:00

Dear darling Fiona,

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY!!

My dear sister, you will always be in my heart.

Forgive me for "abandoning" you sometimes for life now can be pretty stressful.

One of my juniors says I should get over the loss of you. Advises me to.

I don't really think I'm supposed to get over it, but oh well.

Life and society think differently from me.

I'm also accustomed to listening to juniors actually.

Maybe you caused it. (Nah, it isn't supposed to sound bad.)

But I think listening to anyone is safer than listening to myself.

You'd agree, lil sis.

If you were here, you would be 8.

I would've forced you into HWS.

Well, you'd have the best childhood ever there. :')

Then, I would've dragged you into TKG.

Into Red Cross. Tkgrcy. Let everyone know you have a sis like me. (:

Well, it doesn't actually hurt to think anymore.

I would've loved to take you shopping, spend all my $$ on you.

Now, your with God.

You know what, baby. I'm jealous. >:(

No fair, you went ahead in front of me in the queue!

But anw, He allowed it, and He let you stay by His side.

I'll have to wait~

But well. Happy birthday kiddo~

I'll continue thinking about you. <3

2011-11-12T04:14:00.000-08:00

im blogging cause yinyu told me to. LOL.

so. about yesterday.

Okay, we went to ri.

It was so freaking embarrassing.

I shouldn't have told Ricole okay.

When he popped up, she just started looking at me and smiling. WTS!

Its like so obvious.

Then after that Meida YuMei Aixin Fatin all found out.

ARRGHH~

Lesson learnt: Life sucks.

Too overwhelmed to continue.

so, bb.

2011-11-08T04:24:00.000-08:00

I'm backkk.

After mia-ing for so long haha

Can't believe I'm sitting for o levels on thursday!!!

I'm so freaking scared.

I'm getting older. :'(

haha anw.

my birthday was fine.

my birthday cake was sooo cutee. :D

omg. I was talking to Ricole today and I said the wrong ri guy's name.

She smirked at me. SMIRKED. wts right??!

I knew I shouldn't have told her! ughh.

Rock-climbing was pretty stressful. So many people reached the top. :(

of course I didn't lahh lol.

Friday is ccl with ri and haig girls. hope it'll be fun. (:

and next thurs is inter-unit with tks.

zzzz.

waiting for rcyc :B

I'm pretty sure I won't know anyone though.

Talked to ma'am sharifah for the whole day today sia!

if I didn't have unlimited my bill would definitely boom.

zzzzzzz.

I am ready to sleep.

Maybe I should sleep soon.

Study for hmt tomorrow. :((

sigh. I tried deactivating my fb acc but failed. LOL.

I'm such a failure.

Can't even climb a stupid wall without screaming. UGH.

tons of people are disturbing me on fb. dammit.

I shouldn't have reactivated.

Can't play games without interruptions lor.

zzzzzzzzzzzzz.

I should get ready to sleep.

Ohh right.

The fire drill was okay I guess.

made a new friend with this casualty. haha~

oh well. Going now. (: bb~

2011-10-20T02:26:00.001-07:00

today's such a sad day. I failed amath, chem, bio. and ss.

Went around the whole day worrying whether I can pass the promo criteria for sec4.

I'm actually getting scared. About retaining.

It's that bad.

I'm so not looking forward to my birthday.

Partly cause of Op Boom. Yeah well since thats whats gonna happen.

I'm put with a junior. I hope she doesnt mia on me.

I swear, I may just kill myself.

It's so stressful being the aqm.

Oh right, talking about posts.

Mrs Guna was like talking to ax and me about all the awards.

Outstanding award goes to chair or vice, director's award to chair.

Eagle's to top 5 singaporeans.

So meida doesn't qualify.

Which means, since i'm no.7, I get.. Nothing.

Hell, Aixin was like getting awkward.

Duh right, when you get everything and the one next to you gets nothing.

But I feel happy that she considered for me.

I put in so much effort, though.

I know the past aqms and rck ics would be rather proud of me.

But..thats not what im looking for. :'(

oh well, no point talking about it, right?

Not like complaining will change anything. :'(

I hope nobody freaks out when I suddenly start crying.

2011-10-19T02:44:00.000-07:00

Omg, my friend Iris gave birth today..

They named their baby Alyson. Pretty cool name!

It might be my doomsday cause of chem and the emergency drill, but I guess this is one happy occasion!

God bless this cute baby! <3

2011-10-16T22:46:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I totally need to release stress.

ughhhhhhhh.

actually. what am I stressed about?

Is it Ricole? Hijanah? The rest of my friends? Open house?

How funny. I have a life which so many people are envious of.

Class comm member, cca leader, great social life, etc etc.

whats wrong with me?

Maybe I need to go to the doc.

2011-10-16T22:22:00.000-07:00

im going to google 'how to pull yourself together' later on.

seriously, my mood would have been perfect if I hadn't talked to hijanah!

my tutor's msn-ing me, the guy i like showed some acknowledgement to my existence.

and im listening to avril. <3

arrgh. I want to feel happy! :(

today's mr keith's birthday haha.

plus 3 other people. mine's coming!

I'm planning how to celebrate my birthday. :B

Maybe buy some really really expensive contacts?

hahaha. or buy a big big soft toy. (:

it'll be the second year im spending my birthday alone.

i kinda like it though! but i'll have to go to school.

wonder how it'll be like?

hopefully noone realizes its my birthday. Or it'll be so awkward.

well, im pretty sure some juniors remember, but its just sec3s having class on that day.

haha~

im even going to skip church on that sunday.

ah well~

hahahahahahahahahhahahahaahahaha.

within this laugh, there are so many tears.

The more Anger towards the Past you carry in Your Heart, the Less Capable you are of Loving in the Present.

2011-10-10T00:48:00.000-07:00

Gosh I'm so tired.

Bio mock spa was..wow. :O

Listening to music and just chillaxing. (:

Sigh, gonna prepare birthday presents later.

Its like, so random haha.

Oh well, guess I'm a pretty random person. (:

Gonna have tuition in about ten minutes~

Still so tired. :/

2011-10-07T23:58:00.001-07:00

I have so much time to post now!

I'm so so so angry at one person in my squad.

She pisses me off so much!

Well noone's gonna read this thing so why don't I just vomit out everything.

I found one person who blogs practically everyday. Yinyu.

I'm so glad eoys are over.

Facebook's such a painful reminder of everything.

One day I'm gonna unfriend everyone and live an antisocial life.

Then when everyone tries to friend me again I'll feel so popular. (:

I miss 57 and 58, you know. And the old 59. Sigh.

True, your life's complicated.

Mine? I'M TRYING TO LOOK HAPPY YO.

Is it working? Ah well idc. I don't want to look as ignorant as Yumei.

If she looks pissed on Wednesday, then at least I know someone's been reading this. (:

I know my squad spies on me alot. They check my networks and spread info arnd.

It's so sad to know that I'm supposed to belong here but I don't.

Syf, ndp, uip, rcyc, ulp!

This has changed my life man.

I didn't go for any, but still, my squad changed thru these.

I feel so heartbroken when I think of 59.

Yet, I can't get out of this mess. Ai Xin simply refuses of it.

I'm dizzy turning from side to side.

I need to settle down somewhere.

And I guess that somewhere will be in church and with my class.

Its time I paid more attention to other people.

I couldnt wait for camp, but now I'm not so sure. Should I even go?

The juniors are totally fine though.

But we mistreated them so much, I guess its impossible to bond with them anymore.

I feel so alone. Even though I know I'm not.

But, still. I don't think anyone can ever replace the squad I lost.

Some people are being just too nice. I never had this kind of love before, now I'm just plain suspicious and distrusting.

I have this confession. I'm from 2e3, right?

The english class?

Well guess what. My english actually sucks so bad, you can't imagine how bad it is. Haha.

Oh well cant think of anything else, guess I'll post again some time later.

2011-10-07T23:30:00.000-07:00

Wow, I'm posting after how long??

Sheesh eoys are over but there's still spa and olovel mt! :(

nvms, I'm sure it'll be a good mugging experience~~

Actually idk why I'm so happy.

I should be upset, right?

I mean, like, I just kinda lost my squad and friendships with 6 people.

But then, I realized that there's so many other people around!

It's not really fair to them if I bitch so much arnd them.

Oh wells~

Omg. I like him so much, I don't know why.

Was it his dressing? Or cause he's so nice?

But either way I'm not gonna see him again, I think, so I'd better give up~

Whoo actually I'm here cause fb's blocked on this com I'm using. -.-

ah well.

mugging with my classmates are actually fun hehe.
No need to stay in the rcr and bother about cleanliness, added bonus.

Can't wait to step down! 6 more months~

or more, if Ai Xin and rest don't want to step down on time. -.-

Went to smiggle ysd at bugis

Bought stuff for juniors in Gustave Moynier and my friends.

Gustave Moynier, funny isn't it? I'm proud of being their mentor though. (:

Hmm. Gonna go church later, then eat dinner at Suntec with churchmates.

Quite glad my cousins brought me here, the people are so nice. (:

Actua;;y supposed to be working now hehe.

Oh well, but the pay so little. :(

whoo. Talked to ma'am siti too after so long.

Its so sad, I miss sec1 with all the ma'ams.

and the good times with 59. I rmb when our strength was 22. (:

so funny.

But well we have to let go right?

Maybe memories and relationships built up with ma'ams are enough.

I hope ma'am ysuwen isnt angry at me though. :/

Alrighties nth I can do now~

I wonder who actually blogs now. Just Ma'am Peiwen? haha.

So many things happened sia.
It cant all be written here.

Oh yeah, I kinda changed my perception about kpop. O.O

hehe.

Wow, Ma'ams taking O levels so soon.

Our turn next! D:

Better study hard already~

Still miss all the people in my life before though.

Even friends I barely knew like Yiyun. All the 57 ma'ams? haha.

Sec1 life was so screwed up but I definitely want to relive it again.

Sigh~

Going thru everyone's blogs again.